i love being with you

but its starting to get

painful.

god bless us everyone

we're a broken people living under

loaded gun

and it

can't be outfought

it can't be outdone

can't be outmatched

it can't be outrun

no!

and when i close my eyes tonight

to symphonies of blinding light

god bless us everyone

we're a broken people living under

loaded gun

like memories in cold decay

transmissions echoing away

far from the world of you and i

where oceans bleed

into the sky

water grey
through the windows

up the stairs
chilling rain
like an ocean

everywhere

don't want to reach for me do you
i mean nothing to you
the little things give you away
and now there will be no mistaking
the levees are breaking

all you've ever wanted
was someone to truly look up to you
and six feet / underwater
i do

hope decays
generations disappear
washed away
as a nation simply stares

don't want to reach for me do you
i mean nothing to you
the little things give you away
but there will be no mistaking
the levees are breaking

all you've ever wanted
was someone to truly look up to you
and six feet / underwater

i do

all you've ever wanted
was someone to truly look up to you
and six feet / underground now
i do

i feel
like somehow
i have
let everyone
down

we have all
gone off in different directions

i miss all of my friends so much

i would give anything to be with them
every single day
just like school

going through photos of us all
make me smile

but they soon remind me
how much we loved eachother
and how we all no longer
have those connections

i love you nvrland

to whom this may concern;

i've been thinking about you quite a bit today
because i realised
i've not wrote anything on here in a while

this experience over here is mind boggeling
for the last few days i've been completly
lost in translation

i have finally reaslised
that nobody here speaks english

i think i'll cry when i'm back home
and people speak a language
i understand

visiting malls over here is
different

its not stores
they're more like stalls
like the type you get
at music festavils

but seriously
this is an experience i won't forget
..hopefully

cause i have been drinking whilst i've been here
and i've already forgotten what happened that night
(thanks to my new american friends haha)

and clubbing in china kicks ass
one of my american mates is only 15
and we did not get asked for id at all

but the people are really friendly in clubs
they give you drinks, dance with you
and you have no idea who they are
its great

but we think they only did that cause we're white

but it happened in every club

was pretty fun

yeah

panda

?

sorry

but i miss you

quite a lot actually

and i can't wait to see you when i get back

as long as you are not overseas

in wellington!

ok i'm going to go now

be good and stay classy

:)

yours sincerely,
james.

dynamite!

to whom this may concern;

nihao!

that is about the extent of my chinese.
so as you proberbly can tell,
its been rather difficult to converse with people.

so i've said it before
and i'll say it again
i rather miss you

in a way, this holiday kinda sucks
because i don't get to see you
and my dad constantly goes on about
how amazing asian girls are
how their bodies are amazing
there are some great asses here
etc etc etc

it is a tad annoying
but he does not really understand everything
that i have been through over the last few years

hence why i don't see people like
sex objects on a stick

i see real people

but oh well.

i hope you're all good in the hood

say hi to chaz & geoff for me if you go into jb
which i'm sure you will :)

be good!

sincerely,
james.

to whom this may concern;

helllllo
i have arrived safe & sound
and all in one piece.

i still feel a little jet laggd
and my head feels weird
but other than that i'm fine :)

my dads computer is weird
and the keyboard is hard to write on

it is rather annoying

i was thinking about you quite a lot on my flight
from sydney to shanghai

i wanted to rest on your shoulder
and hold your hand :)

i hope you are all good in the hood

i miss you.


less than three.

sincerely,
james.

to whom this may concern;

it has only been a few hours

and i'm already missing you like crazy!

i hope you can survive without me for 3 weeks xD

i know it will be rather hard for you

but hey, you can always go into jb and talk to chaz :)

i'm going to write to you every day.. hopefully

and constantly remind you that

even thou i'm miles away, you're still on my mind

you'll always be on my mind wherever i may be;

right next to you, up in the clouds, in an airport..

i less than 3 you quite a lot

and i think you're special

(not morgan special)

(:

sincerely,

james.

your breathe

your taste

your smell

your touch

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